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Sunday, September 03, 2006
Veilside Mazda RX7
brakes applied at |11:58:00 AM|
Saturday, September 02, 2006
HELLO PEOPLE!! I'M BAAACK! hahas. it's been what, nearly four months since i last blogged? gosh. i've been so busy laa.. well, i got out of my emotional crisis. thank God. i'm keeping the songs and poems here though. could be used for future musical use =)
currently having my holidays. 1 month only. bummer. Temasek Poly has 2 months la. oh wells.
i'm now working at NTUC Income promoting this game called Logic 9. wah, so happy that i got transferred to Bras Basah. yays!! finally, some motivation!!
just got back from soccer training. only four people turned up today for FC Olympique's training. how sad. but it was fun nevertheless. we need a player who really can inspire the team to work together, cuz seriously, from what i observe, the team is mostly individualistic. well, this matter will be looked into and hopefully, that special player will come along soon *fingers crossed*
mom and sis are in JB now. i didn't wanna go along cuz we had to take the bus when the car is parked at home just cuz of the stupid worn out tyres. haven't eaten at all today. and i don't feel hungry. how unlikely.
i'm glad that Man U are performing well this season. hopefully they can keep it up and win the Premiership title this year. also hope that Schumi and Ferrari can manage to close up on Alonso and Renault for the Driver's and Constructor's Championship and emerge champions of 2006. they really deserve it.
neways guys, i gotta go now. i guess i'll see you when i see you =)
Meet my new car..
brakes applied at |4:06:00 PM|
Saturday, May 06, 2006
That's me and Esther.. haah.. buddies! =)
here's a song i wrote.. not complete yet ah..
I left you after waiting for so long,
I knew we wouldn't exist,
I knew it all along.
2 months we spent in silence,
I never heard from you
I ain't gonna turn back
cuz I'm on a different track
Wonder how it feels inside you,
Do you feel lost and lonely?
Now that you're with him.
Does he fill up the gap I left?
I miss the calls,
I miss the laughs,
I miss the way you smile.
I miss the pouting,
Miss the crying,
I miss you getting mad.
I miss the things we say after we fight,
Sweetest dreams and nighty-night,
What I'm trying to say is that,
I miss you.
I know that things aren't working out,
Between you and him,
I know I should talk to you.
Like I always do.
But I can't, I won't,
And not cuz I don't care,
Not cuz I don't love you,
Cuz you know I still do.
Wonder how it feels inside you,
Do you feel lost and lonely?
Now that he neglects you,
Has the gap become much wider?
I know it hurts,
To be alone,
To have no one to call your own,
I didn't stay,
I went away,
And I never did come back.
But it’s the only thing that's left to do.
I miss the calls,
I miss the laughs,
I miss the way you smile.
I miss the pouting,
Miss the crying,
I miss you getting mad.
I miss the things we say at night,
Sweetest dreams and nighty-night,
What I'm trying to say is that,
I miss you.
brakes applied at |10:48:00 AM|
Thursday, December 22, 2005
there comes a point in time,
when you're heart knows for sure that you are in love,
with that sepcial someone,
you wanna make her happy,
you wanna make her smile and laugh,
even if it hurts you a little,
what's important is her joy,
cuz you know deep down inside she's the reason behind that smile of yours..
brakes applied at |9:28:00 AM|
Monday, December 19, 2005
everytime i tell you i that love you,
you tell me you're falling for someone else.
i am broken for awhile,
yet i still keep on loving you.
i dunno why i stay,
it hurts me so to know you don't feel the same way.
but it hurts me even more to leave you.
why do you keep doing this to me?
you seek me when i'm away,
but when i'm around you push me aside.
i have always loved you,
i dunno though if you ever loved me.
it hurts to love you,
it hurts to not.
around you i feel scared,
without u i feel terrified.
what is this feeling?
i need an explanation.
it's funny each time you tell me about the other guy,
i smile hiding the e stinging pain within me.
many have told me to leave,
but do you want me to?
do you even love me?
i ask again..
i wonder..
i hope things will change..
i dun wanna wonder anymore..
i wanna noe how you feel..
sorry is a very easy word to say to me,
cuz i will forgive you.
but that doesn't mean that you didn't hurt me with your words,
especially when i know that there's someone else who can make you happy,
someone who can make you forget your problems.
you don't get it do you?
i care about you.
i try my utmost best to keep up with these guys,
but when i do keep up with them,
then it seems that i have yet another self imperfection to deal with.
seems to me that i will never be good enough.
what wrong did i do to you to deserve this?
what do i lack?
but then again telling me where i need to imporve on won't make a difference.
i'll still faulter elsewhere.
is it so difficult to digest the fact that i love you?
and the worst part is that i've been loving you for years.
you see me as one of you best friends,
then why is it so tough to cut me some slack?
you know i actually feel inferior to those guys,
regardless of what they're like,
bottom line is that they have your heart,
while i have to make-believe that you love me.
i can only imagine,
only fantasize of the very lives those guys lead,
cuz i know i can never have you in reality.
i don't mean to control who you go out with,
but take a moment to understand why i'm doing all this.
i'm jealous.
it's hard not to be when the girl of my dreams is only almost within my grasp.
almost.
close but not close enough..
don't have to tell me..
i know you don't love me..
brakes applied at |11:56:00 AM|
Thursday, July 28, 2005
missing someone currently.. if i were to write out my feelings in a short poem, it would sound something like this..
listen close and you will hear,
just how much i miss you dear,
the path before me's now torn apart,
and that's the only road into your heart,
even when you're near you seem so far away,
i feel my heart has gone astray.
i am so lost without your voice,
here in the dark where silence is noise,
it makes my world ignite and continue to burn,
knowing that you're gone and you won't return.
brakes applied at |10:10:00 AM|
